Sunday, August 23, 2009

A crazy day and the good life

So, McKenna, you may not have been the star of the last few days, but you were sure along for the ride. Someday you"ll have your own crazy life, and I am sure you'll be able to relate.

It started during the week when I knew I needed a sitter for you and Quinn from 8:30 a.m. to 9:30 p.m. on Saturday. Dear me that is a long time. You guys started daycare with Shelly on Friday, so it was already breaking my heart a bit to leave you again, and then to make matters worse, I just couldn't get enough sitters. I split you guys up and got sitters in shifts, but it still did not cover the day.

I was headed to Cassie Westover's (Hammer) wedding. The sealing was at 9:40 a.m., the luncheon at 1 p.m. and the reception at 6 p.m. all in Salt Lake. I really wanted to go to everything, but it was mostly no kids allowed. It got sticky in the end.

I dropped you off at Melissa's house at 8:30 a.m. (Quinn had a sitter at home). It was a fast drop because I was running late. Then there was a road closer in town that slowed me down. I was sure I was going to be late for the wedding. I hauled butt, parked illegally, ended up with a $30 ticket but made it to the wedding in time.

It was beautiful. I am very in love with your dad, and I enjoyed the time in the sealing room to reflect on how grateful I am. In the past, there has been sealings where I was not so delighted with my current state of life and love. But this time, the stars where aligned. They are aligned. Ups and downs are part of life.

It was hot for pictures outside the temple. I had arm pit sweat rings. Not cool. I eventually headed to my car to find the ticket, got a legal parking spot, and then headed into the Joseph Smith Memorial Building to pump milk since you were far away. You were at Melissa's barely taking a bottle, you little bugger.

Lunch was yummy, and I loved talking to Austin and Mana all about their wedding that I missed. But the whole time I was still trying to figure out what to do with you girls for the night. I had planned to skip the reception since I never found a nighttime sitter, but everyone made that sound like a horrible thing to do. I got the vibe that it was fine to bring you guys to the party if the alternative meant not coming.

So, the plans changed fast. I headed to Alpine, picked you up, and headed home. I found you a black velvet formal dress that was too short, but still cute. I found myself my only formal option. Lots of black AND pantyhose. I was still sweating from the morning, so this was not cool. And I was wearing heels, which was even less cool. But I had to have us all looking perfect because I already felt like I was breaking a formal event rule by bring you guys, and I didn't want to add "cheesy morning church clothes at a formal event" to the list of major faux pas I was making. I also grabbed a few formal dress options for Quinn and then headed to Aunt Sue's to pick her up and get her ready.

I was not in the car 2 minutes before I wanted to die. I was so hot and so uncomfortable, and Sue called to say that Quinn had really bad diarrhea. I looked at the short stack of Quinn's Pull Ups next to me, and although my heart told me to go home, change and get more Pull Ups, I just kept driving.

We got there early. I was still hot. The Valet guys were really nice as I unloaded you and a ton of entertainment options for Quinn. I loaded up the stroller and then dragged it up 20 stairs. The minute I got inside, I knew that this party was NOT kid friendly. It was a three story old house, and the party was on ALL three levels. No elevator. I started to ask a guy who looked in charge if there was a place to set up camp for the kids, and he cut me off before I finished to tell me that there was no place for my stroller. He was a big jerk. I got all paranoid. I decided to regroup at the car and leave the stroller in the Jeep.

But when the nice Valet guys went to get the car, it died!!!

No joke the car died at the party. Honestly, if I had had a car, I probably would have loaded you guys back up and gone home before it even started. But we were stuck. (And in the end, I am SOO glad we were.)

So hot, so tired, and Quinn just wanted to hang out with a new family she had met inside. I let her while I figured it out. Daddy was working on calling a tow truck, and I was trying to not freak out AND find the time and space to feed you.

Things got worse as more people showed up. It got crazy crowded. I had no help. Quinn was all over, you cried, and I had to hold on to my phone so I could feel when the tow people called. I missed their calls anyway. When I finally got to the front of a food line, Quinn screamed that she had to go poo-poo. We left you with someone, got out of line, and ran upstairs to take care of business, which had of course already been taken care of in her Pull up. One down.

Eventually, we decided the car was out of gas. Daddy came and filled it, and it work. We thought the problem was solved, and the party was just getting good. Daddy headed home, and I kept you guys to dance and play a little before going home. Quinn had a blast dancing at the party. For about 45 minutes, the last 2 hours or torture had seemed worth it. Eventually I dragged Quinn downstairs so we could leave before you'd have to eat again.

But the car died again. For real.

We headed back upstairs. I was all sweaty all over again, and then, of course, you had to eat. When I called Daddy, he about flipped out. He was only a few minutes from home by then. He was really mad. But of course he turned around and headed back to Salt Lake to get us.

When he pulled up, I about fell into the car I was so tired and so done. My whole body hurt from our adventure. Then daddy looked at me with a guilty expression and said, "I booked us a room at the Grand America."

Dear me. I always bug him to take me there. It is really expensive. We made a deal that we would go as long as we never talked about how much it cost. He said he just didn't have the heart to drive all the way home.

Knowing we were going to the hotel made it easier to deal with all the towing stuff. But it was also stressful because I knew that I didn't have shoes except my heels, and no clothes except a formal dress.

We ended up in a big suite with plenty of room so that I did not have to hear you snoring or moving around in the night. Daddy and I got room service, and then we called it a night. You were great all night, angel.

In the morning we played, and then headed to brunch at the hotel. I wore a formal dress and flip flops that I bought at the hotel. The brunch is famous as a local favorite, and now we know why. SOO GOOD. and SOO expensive. But remember.... no talk about money.

The car wasn't ready once we left Salt Lake, of course. We headed home, took naps and then packed up the car to head to a concert in the park in Lehi. Daddy's friend Brandon was playing with his country band.

We danced like crazy, and had a great time. You stayed awake for most of it, and seemed to like it. Normally you freak out when it is windy, but you were very relaxed in spite of the breeze tonight, and when we got home you laughed for me a bunch.

So, it was a long and crazy 28 hours. But it had all the charms of a good life. A celebration, some drama, spontaneity, tears, love, food, family, music, a fast shoe purchase in a hotel, a fit from a 2 year old, a sleeping baby during brunch, a free newspaper on the door step, a bubble bath, a fulfilled fantasy, good wedding cake, dancing and more dancing, laughter and Valet parking.

The Same but Different

So I am the worst at printing and especially framing new pictures of my kids and family. Evidence of this is that one of the only pictures of Quinn in our house is a picture of her at 11 weeks. It is a 4 x 6 on our piano. Because it has been up for so long it is sort of the standard Quinn baby picture. Well, here is that picture AND an oddly similiar one that we got of McKenna this weekend. You decide:

Family resemblance or identical twins?

Quinn at 11 Weeks



McKenna at 10 weeks




Need a second look?



McKenna at 10 Weeks




We got some great pictures of McKenna last week while visiting in California. As usual my mom took the pictures, but I did pick up her camera a few times and got a few really great shots. Man, her camera is heavy!! I think I am still sore!

Here are some of the best shots. I have printed a lot of these and put them up around the house. This is surely a milestone because I never put up new pictures. A majority of the pictures of Quinn in our house are of her at 11 weeks old. So it is possible that no matter what McKenna looks like later, these will be the picks that last forever.

One of the these 10 weeks shots is almost identical to an 11 week shot of Quinn. I'll blog those side by side later!














Friday, August 21, 2009

McKenna enjoys an ever-so-light bite on the footie. Oh, and she doesn't really like to be ignored.
Just dropped McKenna off at her first time at daycare with our nanny, Shelly. She had a huge feeding and then was all smiles when I left! Love you, baby!

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

We are in the airport and McKenna just grabbed a toy for the very first time. It is a row of rings hanging from her caer seat. It is the same set of rings as Q.

Monday, August 10, 2009

2 months

Dear me, my angel is two months, and I have no pictures to show for it.

I do have a lot of love though. I love that she had hold up her head for me now. It makes it so much easier to bond with her.

She loves the mobile above the changing table as did Quinn. She can lay their and stare at it for a long time. Sometimes I forget where she is ... don't tell.

She loves to be warm, and she sleeps longer and better if she is sweating, I swear. So I put winter PJ's on her and wrap her up tightly. If she gets a finger out of her swaddle, she freaks out. And she cries ever louder if her little hand gets cold. So again, I bundle her up good so I can get a good nights sleep.

I have a theory that she does not like breezes. I don't really like breezes either, so maybe I am just projecting my own likes and dislikes on to her. That is totally possible.

She seems to love Quinn, and she does not mind if Quinn puts her stinky dog-dog on her tummy ot head. The other day Quinn put a baby doll that was about McKenna's size on top of her while she played on the floor. McKenna didn't seem to mind, and Quinn was delighted by her act of service. She'll grip things if you put them right in her hand. She lead my hand for a long time last night at mike and sue's house. I was laying on the floor with her. It was nice and relaxing.

I have my most relaxing parts of the day with my McKenna if I let myself. Sometimes I am distracted my T.V. or breadmaking. But if I just let myself sit with my Kenna, I feel wonderful. It's like prayer ... if you do it, it really comes back to you and feels wonderful.

Kenna has gone to Daycare at the gym two times this week, and both times she slept the whole time, which meant that I got to enjoy a whole hour of yoga. Now that is a baby worth praising and loving!! Happy 2 months, baby!

Wednesday, August 5, 2009

Bottle Blues and Smiles

Post from Owner of the Band:

We almost had a MAJOR crisis on our hands here this week.

The first time I gave McKenna a bottle, she took it. I fed her an ounce and then said, "All right. We got it." I nursed her and put her to bed.

A few weeks later I left her with a friend for my root canal. My friend Lizza gave McKenna a bottle and told me that she only drank about an ounce (very half heartedly) and then didn't want any more.

So I tested the bottle a few more times, and it turns out ... SHE HATES IT! One time when I tried to give her soy formula, I swear there was actually MORE in the bottle everytime I checked the measures on the side to see how much she had eated. Aunt Sue was there. She'll tell you the milk was multiplying.

So I have been pumping my milk and testing the bottle more and more in hopes that she'll take more than half an ounce. I have to start working in about a week, and so I do not really have a choice. She has to work this out. I have to work this out. This had to get worked out! Dear me.

She has never even swallowed one sip of formula until this week. She took about half an ounce of Imfamil which was a step forward. But mostly she wants breast milk, so here I am feeling like a dairy farm all day long.

I have tried a lot of bottle feeding methods and nothing worked. But whenever I got on the Internet to search for more ideas, I started to cry. WHAT? I know. I don't really know what was going on. I wasn't really all that upset, but reading about other women facing this struggle while they too are preparing to go back to work just made me start crying every time.

So I did what any classic American girl would do. I call my sister and my girlfriend and I asked them to do the research for me and tell me what to do. I talked it out with Bridget, and then Kristie called with a list of ideas. We put a game plan together with a new perspective and BHAM! 3 Ounces!!!!

I woke her from a nap, so she would be drousy and submissive, and I laied her on her side like I do when she nurses. She went to town on the bottle, and she even fell asleep for a little bit like she does when she nurses.

It really does make sense. She hates to sleep on her back unless she is tightly swaddled. When she nurses, she relaxes almsot to the point of sleep. I always try to keep her awake, but there is an element of comfort for her in the process. I don't think she could get to that state on her back in a tradiational bottle feeding position. So when I would give her the bottle, she would drink because she was starving, and when she wasn't starving anymore, she would just stop and smile at me. So for the next little while, I will bottle feed her on her side or swaddle her.

I am so grateful that we have made some progress!!


Thanks, Bridget. Thanks, Kristie.

Thanks, Kenna-Benna.

Saturday, August 1, 2009

Chin Up!

I had such a special moment with McKenna on the airplane this week.

I was sitting in the aisle seat holding McKenna on my lap. She was facing me, and suddenly she held her head up for the first time. I could tell that all the people around me were watching us. I got this overwhelming sence of pride and excitement for my little one. I turned around and said to the people staring at us, "She's holding up her head for the very first time." Everyone smiled and kept watching the exciting moment.

It was as if McKenna had been born again for me. A little real person right there in my lap. I loving being McKenna's mother.

Silly Girl Says NO THANKS to bottles

So I just can't get McKenna to take a full bottle. I am going to have to keep desperate measures ...

Yesterday I tried a new formula that I think she likes, but she still won't drink it. She started sucking and swallowing for about 2 minutes, and then she stopped and looked at me and smile as if to say, "Silly Mommy. I'm not going to drink that crap. He He."

She did this multiple times before she finally drank about an oz.

A few minutes later I breast fed her, and she took the whole kit and caboddle. Crazy Lady.

So I am going to have to make her do it. Next Tuesday I am just going to feed her bottles all day. It might be a crazy, but I think it will help.